the state of my body

a river of years
this love
is old

every morning i awaken
to the smell of my hair
and the state of my body

and yet; you, the leader
the born again resident of my
pitter patter heart

it's illustrious
it is now luminous
you have become
transcendent
you are beyond

proud and strong
down to the bone, you are real
a prince of china
stretched skin over a frame
a forgiving casing

and i'll bring you back to the earth
the womb of your forefathers
it'll be a release, a relief
you have ached for the land of souls

less like a man, more like a ghost
peripheral loving, i see you there
watching me watching you

this time, look deep in my eyes
they are here for you to inquire
inquiring minds are wondering
when you fall, is it eternal?

i do not know about tomorrow
but this chasm in my gut is full tonight
there is hesitation, can i be filled?
if anyone were to top me up,
it'd be you

hold me through the night
because that is when i miss you most
if you can help me get through the shakes and
aches of midnight longing
than in the morning
i will awaken to my hair
and the state of my body.